Home is a place that when you go there, ..........They have to let you in

Home never really felt like a safe place to me
Except once !
And I think I was severely medicated
Except I don’t remember
Thus my suspicions !
But then there is the calm
I do remember one time there was a profound calm
I remember the incident but not exactly the calm
OK I don’t remember the profound of calm
I just know that it existed.
And finally,
I knew what it was that other people spoke of
Except for the idea
I remember that It gave me an idea
And I wish I could remember what that idea was
I knew that I should write it down or speak it to a friend
Except I don’t have any friends.
And every single time i wright something down
I look at it later and it is something completely different
Besides what if "They" found it
You know, the ubiquitous "They" that are "The Them"
And If I could be just be sure that of the fact
That they were the reason that I could not remember
Then doubtless I would remember what to do about the
Whatever it is?
Home is a place that when you go there,
They have to let you in!..........Robert A.Heinlein